I remember spending almost every night drinking alcohol, smoking weed or pouring pills into my mind, body and soul in order to maintain my happiness and relax. Little did I know I was actually doing everything to unravel myself and ensure that I wasn’t happy. I was weak, surrendering to drugs and alcohol instead of surrender to myself to a higher power that would ultimately keep me relaxed through any situation. After turning myself over to God, I realized I don’t need to put anything in my body to be happy. All I needed was a reason to be happy internally and the external happiness would follow. Now, I am doing everything in my power to make sure I never touch another narcotic substance that alters my mind, body and spirit because my mind, body and spirit has all it needs – God.